I got sick yesterday. You know when you’re not feeling so hot but you keep telling yourself it’s all ok and then something escapes from your glands and swims all over your head and back down through your circulatory system? Yeah, it was like that.
I learned a few things yesterday. First, I’m not as happy or proud of myself as would probably constitute healthy. I work hard at that but am missing some gene. I did a training with The Leadership Program for the in-class enrichment work they do. We did a simple exercise called “Who Am I?” where we had to write down five simple statements of things we are proud of. Things like “I make good mix cds for friends” or “I work out 4 days a week”, not “I am nice”. I couldn’t do it. I was going to have a breakdown. Maybe it was the illness brewing inside me. So I will try to do that in the days to come. If you can’t do that, how can you go out and do anything in this world? Not that you have to brag but you should be able to say decent things about yourself.
I was so wiped out, I opted to stay in bed instead of going to the open call for Seattle Rep. I’d like to work there but this wasn’t in the cards. I’m not a big fan of the open call but still…
Well, I’m off to another performance of The Scarlet Whale.