Wound up in a section of the Upper East Side I haven't been in years. Had those reverse deja-vu feelings you get when you know things are different but you can't remember what was there before. There were several of those glass buildings twisting and squating over smaller brownstones. I assume they are designed and made so that eventually the brownstone can be removed and the glass monster can fill in.

Center Stage and the Wings Theater go away this month. I've spent time in both but not as much as others who must ache over this. I know the folks from the Ohio are moving into the Wings but it still is a shame. It's a shame the Ohio had to close too.

The bodega above is on 2nd Ave in the East Village. It was hard to believe when I saw it boarded up. Seems like cell phone stores, nail salons and American Apparel stores are the most likely candidates to slide into the vacant locations.

Aimee and I were hometown tourists last night when we ate at Elaine's, which will close next week. Totally unnecessary on our part but I didn't want another thing go away and wonder what I missed. While we enjoyed it, I am sure we didn't truly experience it.

Some days it feels like everything needs saving. Every email is a request for help. I'm a little numb to it and I feel kinda awful about it.

I know everything changes. They say the road to happiness is accepting this. It's just sometimes the happiness is crappier.

I was asked by Edward Daniels, a friend from my University of Virginia days, to travel down to the Warehouse Theater in Washington DC to be a guest judge for Monologue Madness, an acting competition he created. It was a great time. Like the NCAA basketball tournament, this was divided into rounds and the actors competed in pairs until there was a final 4 and then a victor.

It began with a comedy round with 54 actors. Some had placed high enough to go ahead to the next round. They had 1 minute to do their pieces. At 50 seconds, they were given a warning and then the stage manager would call “time” if they went over. The second round, with 32 actors, was dramatic. The third round of 16 was classical. The fourth was a cold read of an Eric Bogosian monologue. The final 4 were given an adjustment to one of their earlier monologues. We scored each 0 to 10, with 10 being the highest.

It went by fast and took less than 4 hours. Even if a piece wasn't well prepared, it was entertaining. The audience was receptive and supportive of everyone. For me, it was nice to see that many actors I didn't know.

Some things about doing audition monologues held true. Never sit in a chair, unless you HAVE to do so, especially when doing comedy. No one wants to see an actor doing their prep. Jump in. Swearing is more common but some things are offensive, no matter what the words are used. And actually working, rehearsing and repeating your piece 200 times gets you further than thinking about your piece.

Some of the most talented people were not as prepared as others and only made it half-way through. A 9-year-old girl made the final 4. I think the people who put in the most hours of rehearsal were the most liberated.

More info: monologuemadness.net.

Yesterday I awoke to the aggressive crunching, drilling, scraping, shouting, shoveling and truck beeps that come with trees being planted on my street. Without warning. Part of Mayor Bloomberg's Million Tree project.

I can attest that at least 12 have been used so far. It's nice but I'm glad it's not a daily process.

This morning, the fourth day of spring, brought a gentle dusting of snow on parked cars and the ground. The path in the pic above called to me saying it was probably the last time I'd live enough close to it in this condition to slip in for a quick hike, but I needed to hustle in order to be productive and industrious today.

The grapple between winter and spring is such a metaphor for so many things orbiting me right now. You know how you get that feeling of dread right after 60 Minutes is over? You think, “I could use 1 more day.” That's how I feel about this last 6 months.

We met a year ago today. I was supposed to see Sondheim on Sondheim for his 80th birthday celebration with a friend. She was supposed to do an informal reading of an evening of one-acts. But another friend asked me to be in a reading of his short plays that night and she was given a last-minute ticket to see Sondheim on Sondheim.

So I didn't see Sondheim and she didn't do that reading. We met anyway because Ringling Bros was running the elephants at midnight across 34th Street from the Queens Midtown Tunnel, the only way to get them to Madison Square Garden. She came down from 54th Street to meet her friends from the reading. I said something aloud about her having a beautiful voice when she walked away at one point. Her friend told her what I said and she stared at me the rest of the night. I thought, “she must think I'm weird.”

We didn't say one word to one another.

I took a few cruddy pictures of the night on my Blackberry, including this blur of the elephants running by at what seemed to be more than 10 mph. I asked my friend to tag the pics on Facebook. He only tagged Aimee. She friended me. I wrote a thank you.

Mr. Sondheim is 81 today. The Ringling elephants are at Nassau Coliseum this week while MSG is being renovated. Aimee and I are involved with 2 different staged readings tonight but I'm confident we'll see each other anyway near 34th Street before midnight.

I killed the other blog I had. It was for a show I did 4 years ago. It only had 7 page views. I think it was the right decision. There’s only so much space on the internet for useless garbage. Also, I don’t want to confuse people with multiple blogs.

A few years ago, I cleaned out a trunk full of old journals filled with pages bemoaning my terrible time dating and figuring out how to become an actor. I think the world is better off with those chunks of paper sent off to compost. There must’ve been 30 of them. The act of clearing them out ended my hobby of journaling. I’ve picked up a few since then and have written some deranged notes about this or that but nothing consistently. I guess I don’t need it as much.

I used to worry about whether my handwritten journals would ever be seen by others. Partly this was out of concern that it would be embarrassing but also because I didn’t want to be unclear to my unknown reader.

There was a story in The Times today about a female student at Duke University writing a fake thesis with a Power Point presentation on her sexual encounters with 13 student-athletes during her time there. It leaked to the internet and the names were not hidden.

On the one hand, it was a joke for a few friends. On the other, it’s an object lesson on some basic dos and don’ts. Is it more embarrassing for the girl or her former partners?

It’s fair to wonder whether the person you decide to date or even hook up with is digitally trustworthy. Years ago, the raging jilted would take to a water tower or overpass with a can of spray paint to say what a slut or asshole someone was. I remember as a kid feeling sorry for those people who had their names plastered for drivers by to see.

Fame without discretion drives so much of the pop culture and its coverage now. When we went by those paint scrawls, we didn’t know who actually did the spray painting. Now the tagger and the subject both get their 15 cyber minutes of infamy. And it’s caused some fatal outcomes.

I’ve endured some humiliation and ridicule but nothing to the degree of this recent spate. Hopefully it’s a tasteless fad that will even out. I have a friend, a talented and intelligent person, who started a tell-all dating blog under another name. I know because she sent out a mass email requesting page views and to send potential dates her way. She said she wanted to get the attention of industry people who might find it funny. The blog is similar to the Duke student’s fake thesis. It is easy to figure out who the subjects are. I can’t imagine why anyone in their right mind would send someone to face this, unless they hate that person and are getting some kind of revenge. If the blog was an upfront part of the dating process and potential dates knew about it, then they get what they get like the fame junkies on a reality tv show. But this sneaky approach makes me not trust this friend and I don’t know that anything can be done about it, except to keep a polite distance from this person.

There is a difference between clowns or comedians who know how to play with an audience and those who don’t. The truly skilled ones never put the joke on those in the seats but always back on themselves. They never ask the audience to carry their workload for them. Real funny doesn’t begin with picking a fight.

If someone is heckling or making it a bad environment for other patrons, then the comic can unload on that person all they want. I saw an amazing comic in London reduce a jerk in the audience who was trying to insult the comic. He responded, “Are you still talking? Have you noticed no one laughs when you do that?” The audience cracked up. “Do you hear that? I did that. There it is again. And again. I can do this all night. You nothing.”

Those that go after their audience or the unsuspecting with online or live bully pulpits are weak. To do so to gain notoriety is just plain gross.

Tom Rowan, the director for FU 4 Your Service, made a good point tonight at the rehearsal for the staged reading on Saturday about not being afraid to simply read. The danger in this is one can get caught up in the acting and making eye contact too much and lose where one is in the script. Then lines are lost, read wrong, cues dropped and the pacing deadened. You want to connect and listen to your scene partner but not to the detriment of the script.

He said a little eye contact goes a long way and I agree. The idea, he said, is that we are wanting to give the sense of the shape of a performance of the play, not the second rehearsal.

I'm playing a guy running for Congress who has gone crazy in this play. I have to push the game more than allowing it to happen. The trick is doing that slickly but still having enough genuine there to seem like I'm still from the planet Earth. Otherwise it's too Jim Carrey, but maybe I shouldn't worry about it.

It's a good play and I think the reading will show how ready it is.

Makes me wonder about first read-throughs in general. Folks make a lot of hay about their purpose and worth. Some say they are only good for getting through the first day. Others like to use it to lay the foundation. But tonight makes me think that it really is to get a road map towards what the audience will encounter on opening night.

I've never had a second read-through. I mean, I've been in shows that read scenes endlessly and do a looooot of table work. But I haven't sat down with the script and cast and read it all again half-way through rehearsals either as a reminder or as a way to clear out some of the b.s. I wonder if it would help? I've read plays from beginning to end on my own when I've been lost but not with others.

Then again, I've only had the luxury of too much rehearsal a few times and it was usually just a colossal disaster of a show, with a lot of impossible ideas layered on things for no reason other than ego. Good times. Good times.